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January 2008 
breaking habits
Posted on Nov 9th, 2007
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djnutz
djnutz
I believe I can catalyze a positive change in me by breaking literally every single inclination I have developed. I intiuit that this will lead me directly to the heart of my true self now heavily buried under the scrapeheap of habits, ossified programms of mindless control (or the lack of it)
and it applies to any aspect of daily life:
- smoking cigarettes, the way I do it and why (it reeks, gives you cancer but you smoke it any way)
- drinking liquor, same as cigs (except not smoke it)
- taking keys, wallets, IDs, DLs and anything I particularly need (or rather not taking)
- locking doors (i am never sure i did it - quite frustrating)
- tying shoe laces (same as with the doors -although more painful implications)
- driving car (i do tend to 'zone' and drive on autopilot, not remembering the way itself - it is difficult to come back at times; and I do tend to get the symptoms of road rage -' who gave you a DL you bad person' being the lightest manifestation of my dissatisfaction of the traffic around)
- getting up (early - a drudgery!)
- sitting (be still, not necessarily meditating)
- constant thinking, analysing, daydreaming (god it is so hard sometimes to hear anyone speak through the hum of millions of thoughts)
- eating (i love to eat, or rather have distinctly developed sense of taste, and the only way to satisfy it is to eat way too much than I need just to prolong the process of the intake of goods - how am I 6'2 and 187 remains a mystery to me)
- snacking (do chips always come with a remote control?)
- working (focus on what you do and love it - after checking out mailbox, nba scores, news of the world and beyond, 'it's three already?' my,my how the time flies etc.)
- working out (always have more important things to do and its best to start on mondays, the next is just six days away) ... etc etc etc endlessly
I'd rather not get into my psyche (fears, preferences, needs, desires and so on) cause it can get even more traumatic ...
it is a great path, takes a lot of discipline but I am starting to enjoy it (no I am not masochistic ;P) I just love those tiny victories over my ego (yeah .. eat this! you ego)
blessings
and it applies to any aspect of daily life:
- smoking cigarettes, the way I do it and why (it reeks, gives you cancer but you smoke it any way)
- drinking liquor, same as cigs (except not smoke it)
- taking keys, wallets, IDs, DLs and anything I particularly need (or rather not taking)
- locking doors (i am never sure i did it - quite frustrating)
- tying shoe laces (same as with the doors -although more painful implications)
- driving car (i do tend to 'zone' and drive on autopilot, not remembering the way itself - it is difficult to come back at times; and I do tend to get the symptoms of road rage -' who gave you a DL you bad person' being the lightest manifestation of my dissatisfaction of the traffic around)
- getting up (early - a drudgery!)
- sitting (be still, not necessarily meditating)
- constant thinking, analysing, daydreaming (god it is so hard sometimes to hear anyone speak through the hum of millions of thoughts)
- eating (i love to eat, or rather have distinctly developed sense of taste, and the only way to satisfy it is to eat way too much than I need just to prolong the process of the intake of goods - how am I 6'2 and 187 remains a mystery to me)
- snacking (do chips always come with a remote control?)
- working (focus on what you do and love it - after checking out mailbox, nba scores, news of the world and beyond, 'it's three already?' my,my how the time flies etc.)
- working out (always have more important things to do and its best to start on mondays, the next is just six days away) ... etc etc etc endlessly
I'd rather not get into my psyche (fears, preferences, needs, desires and so on) cause it can get even more traumatic ...
it is a great path, takes a lot of discipline but I am starting to enjoy it (no I am not masochistic ;P) I just love those tiny victories over my ego (yeah .. eat this! you ego)
blessings
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Djuntz,
This is a fabulous train of thought. I love how you put together not only the habits you wish to shift, but the extensions of those as well. This allows you to look at what's working, what's not and perhaps gives some insight into why it's not. Certainly is a lot to work with here! I would suggest you focus on one at a time so you have a much higher chance of success in really shifting these things. Deeply engrained habits are so hard to break-don't set yourself up for disappointment by trying to change it all! Build the “proper response muscle” in one, then move on to the next. Before you know it you will be one healthy machine!!
Peace,
gaiaigirl
thanks for the insight … I like the idea of 'proper response muscle'.
within the course of my struggles I have learned that each change facilitates another …
blessings